baby issues

I have been having issues this time more than I did last 4 times. I have had cramping more on than off for the last week and today I go see my doc. Let me tell you I am a bit nervous for this appt and I have to take the kids with me so I am really praying for good news today. Maybe even an ultrasound to see baby and that things are ok.

sad day.... (in diaper land)

I had to pack the cloth diapers away for right now. This pregnancy has me wore out anf very tired and keeping up with the laundry has gotten hard. I hated to do it and so did Brian but we need to get everything else caught up (laundry wise). While I love the cloth diapers, I need to be albe to care for my children and not be stuck in the laundry room all day long. They will for sure come back out when the new baby gets here sicne baby will be in them too. I'm not sure if they willl come back out before that. We will have to see how things go from now till then.

well huston we have another problem......

I"M PREGNANT!!!! ( FYI if you are on facebook keep it quiet we have not told any one yet)

yep baby #5 is due around feb 17th.

I will have a busy time over the next year. we need a new house but are unble to get a loan for some reason.

How to make a 3 brm house fit 7 ppl any ideas?

getting better at the photog

i am slowly getting better at taking photos and my kids are getting tired of me taking their photos. I have aquired a new camera a canon rebel k2 (film slr/eos). the new camera has a 28-90mm lens. i am just loving it and have started to save up for a rebel xs.

Huston, we have ......

TROUBLE..... one word ------ Tanner

He can pull up in his crib none the less so that make naps and bedtime interesting with him.
In the first year of his life he has grown so much. He went from my 6 lbs 4 oz 18 in long baby boy to a mobile (quick at that) 20 lbs 27 in long freight train of destruction. He is indeed sick again with RSV.
I have more done on my mother's day project. We every year have started a landscaping project on mother's day or the weekend. This year's project is a patio to replace the dirt path and gravel and grass(it's missing) area we have currently. Well we are about 1/3 of the way done with the project and I will be sure to share pics of the after (forgot befores) once it is all done.

A major vent

I can't seem to get things right when shooting photos and people want me to take photos of their kids. I just don't feel like I can do that unless I can get it right on my own kids. The exposure to me looks ok. It is the focus that usually gets all wonky. I just wish I could get it right.
I am just down on myself and so want to get this right or my mom will make me take my kids to the photo studio to get thier pics taken.

i'm a lil behind

I have not been blogging every day like I wanted to. I have noticed that the younger part of our generation needs to have some respect for others. My OWN little sister called me a nerd due to the fact that my facebook status has on it about the election race here for a high power spot (state school superintendent). The ones that want the job have different views on the virtual schools and he wants to do like they have tired to do and that is make so many laws that they have not choice but to close them and the other one is for them even has her own children in one. It just is horrible that money means so much to the unions in this state.

the sad thing is that the teachers unions have so much at stake here they will do what the can to keep their help in the office.

Then in the last week i have looked at my children many times and they are growing so fast and it saddens me to think that i am done having kids unless by some miracle I get to have another. I look at Tanner and think that this is the last time i will have an 8 month old baby or even see one of my children army crawl to my feet and giggle or this is the last time i will have a party for a 3yo lil girl or the last first birthday party i will get to have.

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things are strange and good

a few strange things have been happening here lately..... my eyes have been acting strange i get up and i can't see very well with my glasses on. Tanner will not wheeze all day then after his after noon nap he will start to wheeze again. I will keep doing his breathing treatments till he stops wheezing at all.
I will finish the last 2 refresher classes tonight and tomorrow.
All is well in the south they both (Grandpa and Lily) are doing great. Grandpa is out of icu and Lily does not have a pick line any more and is relying solely on her mom for her food. Grandpa is able to eat solid foods. The prayers are working.
March is also going out like a lion with all this rain and wind. i hope the rest of spring is nice and not as rainy or windy. It is hard to keep a 9 mo old baby's head covered to keep him out of the wind.

many things in one post....

Come on it is the end of march and we are to get up to 6-7 inches.
And a update on Tanner and the RSV .... we are now on a nebulizer as well as other meds. I really worry that he has lost 2lbs in just over 1 wk. Lets hope he gains it back and soon. Since the completely runny poops are gone we are back to the cloth tomorrow. I was not liking the liquid poo in the cloth i had to change him asap or it would run over there was not enough absorption in it. oh well i had a few sposies on hand and used them. so far *knock on wood* we have not gotten a yeast infection yet with the anti-biotic. i guess i could thanks some online sisters for the idea to give him that to begin with even before he got sick.

grandpa seems to be doing OK according to my mom who is in Kentucky. I hope and pray that he gets the tube out of the throat and he will be able to talk to us.
Baby Lily is slowly gaining weight and and getting bigger. (My cousin born 14 wks early)

RAIN RAIN go away

It has been doing that for 36-48 hrs off and on we have had about 30 mins at a time break between showers. And yet the weather people are calling for more rain. i really think this yr will be similar to last year at least in this area of the country. The flooding is starting already i just hope it does not get as bad as last year. DH's work was short on the corn the could plant and had to plant more else were and the beans were hard to get in with the wet ground.

The wind the last 2 days has been nasty too and very gusty.
Please say a prayer for my grandfather who under goes surgery tomorrow to fix a aneurysm near his kidneys.
Tanner is getting better slowly. I however have gotten a cold that has me all stuffed up. DH did have the same thing and was so nice to give it to me after he gave it to Tanner and the girls.

To answer those that wonder how I keep up with this and care for my 4 children...... I write when the kids are being good or are down for the night.

*big yawn* and a lil bit of a vent

That is how I feel. I am so tired who knew that having a child as sick as Tanner is would create lack of sleep. I did not sleep since he was wheezing so loud. I so can't wait for this to be gone and now I am getting a cold thanks to DH (dear husband).

We have talked about more kids again and of course like everything else we talk about our families think they know what is best for us. We would only have ONE more child and then be done. I just don't feel done yet. I just wish our families would butt out. It is our life and what we do is our choice and if they don't like it then they can buzz off and not bring their negitve comments around us.

well the weather here is something else this wind and rain for the ducks.

RSV.....

yep tanner has it. He is the first one of my kids to get it. I hope he gets over it fast. well other wise he is great and growing. He is 19lbs 2oz and 27 inches long. more to come later. comments are allowed on this post.

the evening was.....

like the rest of the day...... kind of stressful. So not only was I home alone with the kids all day but most of the night too. He came home ate then left again and he left even before all the kids were in bed and the youngest 2 girls did not want to be anywhere near the oldest girl.
I am stuck home tomorrow with no van because he is taking it to fix it. I mean my van needs to be fixed but why do I have to be trapped home with all the kids and it is gonna be raining. And yes most days I love him a lot but come on does he have to be gone all day (yes he works full time) and then all night too. Him being gone kind of makes me feel .... well I'm not sure how to word it.
I really hope that tomorrow goes better and the brick and mortar public school has a vacation day on Monday so my 5 yo will be home all day. My 7 yo still has to get her school work done before I have to take the baby in for his 9 mo appointment. Then it is supposed to rain and I thought I liked spring. I guess I forgot about all the rain we get.
I am looking forward to Twilight tomorrow but that is a whole other entry alone.
I guess that is all for this entry.

my cloth addiction is....

It is getting to me again. So I found this on Facebook: The average child from birth to 3 years goes through 8,700 diapers. So my question to you all is why not use cloth and save the landfills. ONE disposable diaper takes 500 yrs to biodegrade and cloth diaper has unlimited number of uses. Also if you read the information on the packaging for the sposies. They recommend dumping the solid waste in the toilet.
I may not get a monetary payment but I do work full time; I am a MOM and I home school 1 of my 4 kids. Teaching her is a full time job as well as raising the rest of my kids. Yes, there are some people in the world that are lazy and use disposables. However, let me state that NOT all people that use disposables are lazy. For some it is just easier and what ever make their life easy is what they do. To each their own.

What a day and it is not over....

I guess it really started last night. Mom called to cancel dinner on sunday since my household was the only ones that can be there. Dad called to have me do something for him today. Then my sister called and said she had fallen off a horse and would not go to the ER to be checked for anything broken. Then I got a facebook message that my littlest sister did not make the softball team. I did get one piece of good news last night my cousin (a 27wk preemie ) was taken off the ventalator at almost 1 wk old and is breathing on her own.
So I started the day knowing all that and to add to it my lil boy did not sleep much last night and I have to change him in the middle of the night and since I had not gotten his diapers folded. I had no choice but to find a too small sposie to put him in thankfully it did not leak any nor did it fit the greatest. (sorry if this offends anyone but I have a strong dislike for them). so I folded the diapers this morning and got the all ready to be used and the had to get groceries and could not find lil man's blanket. Once I found the blanket he was so mad that he had cried himself to sleep and for that I feel bad.
to be continued as the day goes on......

also for the time being I have disable comments on my entries.

My first entry...

If you don't know me well, I love to cloth diaper and I am an EMT. Both things; I love a lot and will tell you so. I have a few people in my life that think I should not be cloth diapering my children (2yo and 8mo). I also have mama cloth, too. (Mama cloth is cloth menstrual products.) I also use cloth wipes with the kids. It is not a money issue why I use them all; it is the chemicals and other things in the disposable products and with a family of 6 we have enough garbage.
The EMT thing is one of the most rewarding things I do. I also home school my 7yo now and have considered homeschooling my 5 yo as well. Some people may not like the fact that I do this but if you look at what kids learn at school that is not part of what the teachers teach them. I would prefer if my kids learn that stuff that I teach them it and not their peers.