i'm a lil behind

I have not been blogging every day like I wanted to. I have noticed that the younger part of our generation needs to have some respect for others. My OWN little sister called me a nerd due to the fact that my facebook status has on it about the election race here for a high power spot (state school superintendent). The ones that want the job have different views on the virtual schools and he wants to do like they have tired to do and that is make so many laws that they have not choice but to close them and the other one is for them even has her own children in one. It just is horrible that money means so much to the unions in this state.

the sad thing is that the teachers unions have so much at stake here they will do what the can to keep their help in the office.

Then in the last week i have looked at my children many times and they are growing so fast and it saddens me to think that i am done having kids unless by some miracle I get to have another. I look at Tanner and think that this is the last time i will have an 8 month old baby or even see one of my children army crawl to my feet and giggle or this is the last time i will have a party for a 3yo lil girl or the last first birthday party i will get to have.

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things are strange and good

a few strange things have been happening here lately..... my eyes have been acting strange i get up and i can't see very well with my glasses on. Tanner will not wheeze all day then after his after noon nap he will start to wheeze again. I will keep doing his breathing treatments till he stops wheezing at all.
I will finish the last 2 refresher classes tonight and tomorrow.
All is well in the south they both (Grandpa and Lily) are doing great. Grandpa is out of icu and Lily does not have a pick line any more and is relying solely on her mom for her food. Grandpa is able to eat solid foods. The prayers are working.
March is also going out like a lion with all this rain and wind. i hope the rest of spring is nice and not as rainy or windy. It is hard to keep a 9 mo old baby's head covered to keep him out of the wind.

many things in one post....

Come on it is the end of march and we are to get up to 6-7 inches.
And a update on Tanner and the RSV .... we are now on a nebulizer as well as other meds. I really worry that he has lost 2lbs in just over 1 wk. Lets hope he gains it back and soon. Since the completely runny poops are gone we are back to the cloth tomorrow. I was not liking the liquid poo in the cloth i had to change him asap or it would run over there was not enough absorption in it. oh well i had a few sposies on hand and used them. so far *knock on wood* we have not gotten a yeast infection yet with the anti-biotic. i guess i could thanks some online sisters for the idea to give him that to begin with even before he got sick.

grandpa seems to be doing OK according to my mom who is in Kentucky. I hope and pray that he gets the tube out of the throat and he will be able to talk to us.
Baby Lily is slowly gaining weight and and getting bigger. (My cousin born 14 wks early)

RAIN RAIN go away

It has been doing that for 36-48 hrs off and on we have had about 30 mins at a time break between showers. And yet the weather people are calling for more rain. i really think this yr will be similar to last year at least in this area of the country. The flooding is starting already i just hope it does not get as bad as last year. DH's work was short on the corn the could plant and had to plant more else were and the beans were hard to get in with the wet ground.

The wind the last 2 days has been nasty too and very gusty.
Please say a prayer for my grandfather who under goes surgery tomorrow to fix a aneurysm near his kidneys.
Tanner is getting better slowly. I however have gotten a cold that has me all stuffed up. DH did have the same thing and was so nice to give it to me after he gave it to Tanner and the girls.

To answer those that wonder how I keep up with this and care for my 4 children...... I write when the kids are being good or are down for the night.

*big yawn* and a lil bit of a vent

That is how I feel. I am so tired who knew that having a child as sick as Tanner is would create lack of sleep. I did not sleep since he was wheezing so loud. I so can't wait for this to be gone and now I am getting a cold thanks to DH (dear husband).

We have talked about more kids again and of course like everything else we talk about our families think they know what is best for us. We would only have ONE more child and then be done. I just don't feel done yet. I just wish our families would butt out. It is our life and what we do is our choice and if they don't like it then they can buzz off and not bring their negitve comments around us.

well the weather here is something else this wind and rain for the ducks.

RSV.....

yep tanner has it. He is the first one of my kids to get it. I hope he gets over it fast. well other wise he is great and growing. He is 19lbs 2oz and 27 inches long. more to come later. comments are allowed on this post.

the evening was.....

like the rest of the day...... kind of stressful. So not only was I home alone with the kids all day but most of the night too. He came home ate then left again and he left even before all the kids were in bed and the youngest 2 girls did not want to be anywhere near the oldest girl.
I am stuck home tomorrow with no van because he is taking it to fix it. I mean my van needs to be fixed but why do I have to be trapped home with all the kids and it is gonna be raining. And yes most days I love him a lot but come on does he have to be gone all day (yes he works full time) and then all night too. Him being gone kind of makes me feel .... well I'm not sure how to word it.
I really hope that tomorrow goes better and the brick and mortar public school has a vacation day on Monday so my 5 yo will be home all day. My 7 yo still has to get her school work done before I have to take the baby in for his 9 mo appointment. Then it is supposed to rain and I thought I liked spring. I guess I forgot about all the rain we get.
I am looking forward to Twilight tomorrow but that is a whole other entry alone.
I guess that is all for this entry.